there is a moment that is very [---] to name. [---] is the moment when you know something bad [---] happen and you can not [---] [---]. you see the bad thing moving to where you are. and you are there and the bad thing is moving and you can not move the bad thing and you can not move from where you are. in this moment you are here and the bad thing is there and there is time [---] now and when the bad thing is here. and the bad thing is not here [---]. but you know the bad thing [---] be here. this is a kind of being that is not the same as the being before you know. and not the same as the being after the bad thing is here. [---] is the being in the [---]. the knowing before the happening. and this moment is where many people live much of the time. the bad thing is not here but the knowing of the bad thing is here. and the knowing is [---] [---] kind of the bad thing. the knowing is with you in a way the bad thing is not [---].